3:00 am thoughts

while walking home from the bars in north chicago i realized something. I was walking down the middle of the street at 2:30 in the morning. Nothing around me. No cars, No people and no reason to tell me to get on to the perfect sidewalk made on either edge of me. I grew up in a neighborhood that did not have any sidewalks so i literally grew up walking on the streets.
Back then I was walking to and from a friends house or to school and back home. Tonight I was walking back from a bar down middle of the street to home and with two perfectly constructed sidewalks on either side of me I decided to walk down the middle, on the street.
What does it mean to me at this particular time in my life i was thinking. Do these sidewalks signify the perfectly constructed lines I must walk to get to my designated goal or location? And while these “sidewalks” were constructed for that very purpose i choose to walk on the “street”?
By walking on the “street” I am still getting to my end location. My goal, My home. I could take the designated path to my goal but I can also take the “street”. But I am still accomplishing my goal in getting home. These are my 3:00 am thoughts.


If you can drive in Chicago, you can drive anywhere

This common expression that used to use held true. In chicago there is traffic, jay walkers, bicyclists and motorcyclists. 

Riding the Jeepney yesterday while going to Robinson’s Mall, changed my outlook on public transportation in a city! Man oh man can they drive. I have witnessed many close calls yesterday. Jeepney hitting bikes, cars, children, other jeepneys and pedicabs. Jeepneys are big 12 person bumper cars that have no restrictions and see traffic lights as more suggestions than actual rules. but the actual definition of a jeepney, according to wikipedia, Jeepneys are the most popular means of public transportation in the Philippines. They are known for their crowded seating and flamboyant decorations, which have become a ubiquitous symbol of Philippine cultural art.

It really did remind me of walking in downtown chicago. Probably not the high building but the pace of the city. Manila is a happening place. So many people in a small area makes the place exciting. Even though the drive to my destination made my blood pressure rise a little bit, i was reminded on how friendly and laidback everyone is. ( Don’t know for sure, but that was my feeling at that point in time).

well, this was just a quick entry from my morning yesterday technically, its about 10 am here and have a full day a head. be back on soon but I have re evaluated my expression. and it’s

If you can drive in Manila, you can drive anywhere in the world”

BAck home in Chicago

so I have moved back to Chicago for a “x” amount of time. Living at home is a change. I’ve been on my own in STL for months almost a year now and coming home is a change. I don’t like waiting especially for something so important like an email telling me if I am able to go back to University or not. 

I’m trying to keep myself busy by working with my dad, reconnecting with my old high school friends and trying to clean my house! Its the least i can do for my family to help out as much as possible for how much pain I have put them through. 

I’ve been home for three 5 days, and I’m bored. bored of waiting but hopeful for the future. My future. This is for the future and hoping future posts is full of happy news on my part. 

Derrick Rose Offers To Pay For 6-Month Old’s Funeral Costs

Chicago Bulls superstar guard Derrick Rose will foot the bill for 6-month-old Jonylah Watkins’ funeral, ABC News reports.

Jonylah died a day after she was shot 5 times while her father changed her diaper in the front seat of a van parked on Chicago’s south side on Monday (3/13/13).


“I’m sitting here just thinking how sad it is that my city got to go through this. I love my city and everyone in it even my haters!” 1:21 AM-12 Sep 12


Brooks also said that the family won’t have to worry about funeral costs as Chicago Bulls star Derrick Rose has offered to take care of the funeral costs.
As of Wednesday, police said they had some leads, including security camera footage of the gunman leaving the scene in a blue van. They believe the shooting was gang related.