Sorry if i haven’t blogged in a while but internet was very hard to come by while in Manila. So I wrote things down in my little journal type thing. first of all my hand writing is shit. Like, I can barely read all my notes that i somehow scribbled onto paper. Living in 2013 kids mostly type shit now a days but its cool.
I’m currently home back in st. louis living the summer out in my apartment before I return HOME HOME in Chicago to start a new chapter in my life. While i was abroad I got the news that I was not approved to return to University.
That’s primarily on my mind at the moment. I’m in the process of realizing and planning the next move in my life. Bare with me as, this (blog) is where i’ll be sharing my thoughts and problems. Here goes nothing as I share my new way of thinking during my time of defeat.
I’ll be reliving my 3 weeks in the philippines here and hopefully find some sort of inspiration to what i want to do next/soon in the future. These are my stories.
At the moment i am not in my apartment in STL or in my basement in my home in Chicago. I am in the wonderful country that is the Philippines.
a little over a week ago I was in my bed sleeping the day away. five days ago i get the word that were going on a trip to the other side of the world! back to my home land. well, not MINE but my parents homeland. We have not been back to the Philippines since the early 90’s. I could barely remember anything at that age. two days ago as a family we jumped on a plane and headed out to Korea, a 13 hour flight, then from there, Manila airport.
The heat hits you like a Jeepney packed with 19 people in the back. the days will be sticky. the showers will be cold but i believe that this trip is the thing that will help me personally.
When your lost, the best thing to do head back to home. A familiar place to get your head right. Go backwards to go farther than ever. Start from the bottom and rebuild. Waiting at home was miserable, it reminded me of last summer when i was asked to leave university and did not tell my parents until a week before class started. This trip might just help me clear my head and give me sense of release from what may or may not happen in a month or two.
its day 2 now in the PI and i’m loving every second of it. definitely updating this to account with anything and everything.
so I have moved back to Chicago for a “x” amount of time. Living at home is a change. I’ve been on my own in STL for months almost a year now and coming home is a change. I don’t like waiting especially for something so important like an email telling me if I am able to go back to University or not.
I’m trying to keep myself busy by working with my dad, reconnecting with my old high school friends and trying to clean my house! Its the least i can do for my family to help out as much as possible for how much pain I have put them through.
I’ve been home for three 5 days, and I’m bored. bored of waiting but hopeful for the future. My future. This is for the future and hoping future posts is full of happy news on my part.